After the death of a son I am considered a 'suicide survior'. Parking my grief has not been an option. I endure the intense adjustments, with faith in Christ. Over time my imagination has been fired with creative past times. God has a way of keeping me in the 'present'. Passing on some of my doll collections has been interesting. I have created handsewn backpacks and purses. This is huge, as sitting still is not my forte. Please step out and follow Colorurdaze. Thank you reader.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Colorurday and pray.
It was beyond my wildest imagination that the tragic loss of my 24 year old step son, would end by suicide. One year ago today, it seemed as though I was driving my car with cardboard across the entire windshield. At this jumping off point; I had a choice, drive off of a cliff or have Faith in the Sovereignty of Almighty God. It is a MUST to build your 'house upon a rock, not upon sand' as Jesus described on the 'Sermon of the Mount' (Matt. 7:24-25). Will anyone who had a relationship with this young, bright, handsome man, ever get use to it? NO but one can get through it. Colorurday and pray.
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Forever after the death of a child, an overwhelming journey with one hope.
I am a 'survior of suicide'. The overwheliming journey of a bereaved family; to a (step) son of 'suicide by choice' is an extremely sensitive and poginant topic. Silence appears to be comfortable, however it really is an exercise of whistling in the darkness. Is there recovery from this tragedy? In truth, as I experience thus far, no one really recovers but rather adapts. A real insight learned this past year, is one will never get use to it, but will get through it! This road must be navigated with a journey following Christ. This isn't said flipantly but in great adoration for My King and My Savior who has strengthed me and others beyond measure. True comfort has sprouted and light is shed, only by knowing the true God, Jesus Christ. He gave His son for us as a living sacrafice. Is this compassion? I really know that it is! After walking this altered path last year, no one could really deny the existence of a Mighty God who gave us choices and has mercy on our poor choices! Life has taken on a new meaning, as the heavy guilt wrenching emotions are dealt with the links begin to religuish. There is hope. Thanks for visiting. Colorurday and pray. In Him, Donna
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May Christ Keep you and Bless your Hearts. Please know my prayers are with you. Keep On donnaslots you are not alone. I admire the courage you have taken to share. God makes no mistakes. You are to be here. Many Blessings Love n Peace In His Name Jesus Chrit.
Skye
Your continued strength amazes me! I know it hasn't been easy by any stretch and I continue to hold you (and your family) in my thoughts daily.
-J
I know there are many praying! god will bless your diligence. Thank you. Colorurday and pray.
The pray of one will put a 'thousand to flight, the prayer of two will put ten thousand to flight'. Your diligence and compassion are recognized. Colorurday and pray.
Thank you prayer warriors!
Hello Colorurday, Thank you for the share. I think when grieving most get 'daydreaming' or no motivation. Not that I am saying my grieving is more because I can not imagine loosing a step son. I know about loss. It ain't easy.
God says he can turn all things for good. Look up. Take a picture of the skye. That helps me. I daydream and look up into the skye. Amazing what you will find. I am praying for you and yours. Love Skye
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